I Was Right To Be Suspicious

My last post ended on a very suspicious note, saying that things were going too well for NaNoWriMo. I even included the Hermione GIF to make the point in a totally rad and cool meme thing.

I was damned right to be suspicious.

Meredith irritation

Want to know why? The damned laptop decided to take it upon itself to crash for the first time this year, forcing me to lose an entire evening’s FUCKDAMNED work.

It’s put a dour note on the whole thing, let me tell you. It’s like losing all that progress in an RPG and you’re just too lethargic about the whole thing to continue. I need to continue though, otherwise there’s just no point to the NaNo exercise at all.

Woe is me and all that.

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NaNoWriMo Day 10 – What’s the Damage?

It’s day ten of NaNoWriMo and Fallout 4 came out today.

I didn’t get my Pipboy Edition sorted in time to get it today, but my partner’s brother was very kind and loaned me his copy whilst they were busy through the day.

This worked out well, since since he got it back I’ve been able to sit here and do some work of my own.

In short, no damage. No damage to my work ethic at all. I’m continuing NaNoWriMo as scheduled. My only hiccup was with my birthday on the fifth, and even then I’ve taken the wordcount from that day, split it up into hundred-word chunks and added them onto my every other day to make up the deficit.

Things are going well.

Too well…

Suspicious Hermione

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The Fallout of my NaNoWriMo Curse

I am cursed, it seems. NaNoWriMo leered over the horizon with a baleful eye, and watched me glance between it and the one thing that’s threatening, promising, demanding me to become distracted from what might otherwise be considered a geas.

I’m screwed already, and I am filled with no little concern for a job I haven’t even started yet.

This is exactly why.

Vault 111 KierSparey stats

Fallout is going to me over. I can feel it in my bones. My bones. You know what else I feel in my bones? Nothing. I can’t feel in my bones. That’s weird, but it sounds like an awesome superpower.

Already I’ve put together my character’s stats over on Vault111.com.

I fully expect hermit status this November.

The above is what I’d gotten written on the 31st. It was supposed to publish whilst I was at dinner with a few friends but, unsurprisingly, that never happened. So I thought I’d hold it back a bit and write a little more for the post.

NaNoWriMo started out very shakily. I got pushed by a few dear friends to start writing stuff again, and three days in I’m actually keeping to my target despite some things really threatening to get in my way. One of those things was truly awful, and being on the first day had almost put a bullet in the head of my plans completely.

Like last year, I nearly had to give up again. I’ve been at this Brontide for such a long time now that I severely want to get it done and carry on with other projects. Distractions and other problems get in the way just enough to make someone want to yell “fuck off” to everything and just sit back and do whatever else is demanded instead, as if the project that’s been clinging onto my creative process is just supposed to be a creative block goblin that burrows into your skull and never leaves.

This year is helping. The people are helping. Hollie is a massive help.

You’ll get more from me this year. My NaNoWriMo target is a lot smaller than a lot of other peoples, but I’m not giving up when I’ve reached that daily target. I’m going for as long as I can in the window that I’m given.

Let’s fuck up that assbutt wordcount.


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Incoming! Brontide pt. XVI Release!

Here’s Part XVI, all ready for your reading! I hope you enjoy it!

Here’s the link!

Otherwise it’ll be you heading up to the drop-down menus up above, heading into Chapter II, and selecting “Brontide pt. XVI – Invitation”

Invitation by Hollie Caddock

More artwork by Hollie Caddock.

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Incoming! New Artwork and Prologue!

Hello again! I’ve got some new stuff for you!

It seems like a while since I pulled Brontide’s prologue in order to make it better than what was there before. Some of you eagle-eyed readers have already noticed that I put up the new prologue last night, but I wanted to wait until this afternoon to make the announcement (you guessed it: one of the prime times to share content).

The first prologue awaits your perusal! As ever, use the above drop down box to find it, or alternatively use this lovely load of blue text conveniently hosting a hyperlink to find it.

The State of the Universe is the universe setting text that gives you the lowdown on the background of Brontide’s universe. It’s the first part to the prologue, since I’m holding back some text that will detail the events that spark the rest of the Brontide story.

Other than that, and I’m a little more excited about this than I am about the new prologue release, is the new artwork that’s come from Hollie Caddock. She’s painted two new pieces of artwork for me, and one of which I’m sharing with you today! Here it is!


I have such love for Hollie’s artwork.

Now I won’t be telling you the title, and I won’t be giving you some context about what’s happening here. What I will tell you is that it’s coming up soon.

Things are about to go very very wrong.

I’ve got some new stuff coming out soon, so keep your eyes peeled for all new Brontide in the coming weeks!

See you next time!

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Pick Up A Journal Using Your Hands.

A while back I managed to lose one of my notepads. It was the one which I’d carry around with me so that if I were to get some kind of idea whilst travelling about I could just quickly make a maddeningly rapid frisk search of myself in the middle of a busy town street – some people would be worried about the mach 4 macarena in front of them – and get it written down before I’d forget about it.

I used to think that I couldn’t forget those good ideas that were going to stick with me. Honestly, how would I know if I’ve forgotten them or not? The only confirmation that you’ve actually forgotten something is the sudden recollection of it or the embarrassing reminder that comes from another party.

I was fortunate enough to recently be handed back my notepad. I thought I’d lost it. After some searching in the most obvious places I resigned myself to the fact that it was lost, along with the ideas I’d regurgitated into the pages. I bought a new notepad, the same type but in blue, and it was doing a lovely job until someone at work asked me if this one particular notepad is mine.


The little bastard had returned.

I have no idea where nor how I’d lost it, but it probably fell out from my pocket or it was left at one of the desks at work. There’s an irony in the latter: I wrote my work schedule in there too.

To return to the idea of forgetting ideas before I forget about the topic of forgetting ideas, I ended up reading through what I’d written in my prodigal notepad. Brontide stuff was plastered across the pages. A lot of it was stuff that I’ve had on my mind for some time. Some of that was refined to the point of concept-cum-scene layouts, but one was a conversation that I’ve had problems with for the last few weeks.

I’d completely forgotten about that dialogue.

Now that I have it again I can compile these notes into the master Brontide notepad (don’t ask how many pads I’ve got) and when I get back into writing that scene I can finally add that bit.

My point is that if you think you’re not going to forget about something, you’re wrong. Remember that thing you forgot about last year? Of course you don’t – you’ve forgotten it. How would you know if you’ve forgotten about it if you don’t remember it?

That’s why I carry these bloody notepads around.

PS. Please don’t have an existential crisis.

PSS. Carry a pen or two too. You don’t want to scramble all hands to find your paper only to find that you’ve left all pens at home.

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All Dressed Up and Nowhere To Go.

Procrastination is a nasty thing. What’s also nasty is the oxymoronic productive procrastination.

In short, doing something productive whilst putting off what actually needs doing.

How did my blog come to this?

I’ve been thinking about blog posts to put up for some time now. All the while it’s come and gone and I’ve scratched my head and continued with other stuff instead. This is what I mean by productive procrastination – I might be procrastinating certain things that are badly needed to be done but on the other hand I’m also doing other things. Productive things. Things!

It’s that thinking that goes into a blog post that got me. What could I possibly put up that I haven’t before, and what on Earth am I even supposed to write that isn’t an addition to my other projects? I need to blog every now and then or things get cold and stale, and not many people like stale bread.

There’s the advice that you should just sit down and do it, and some people will irritate you with “in my experience…” speeches. Ultimately it’s up to you to sit down and do it, sure, but when you can’t think of anything to do you either get so frustrated with it and abort that moment’s creativity or you actually do something.

For me, that doing something is actually sitting down without a plan and writing a goddamned blog post.

I wasn’t sure what it was going to be but here I am ironically writing out the very problem that I’ve had with blog posts. I’ve had this type of procrastination before, way back when I reached blog post No. 100; back then I was really unsure of what it was that I was going to post in order to make the hundredth post special. They’re supposed to be special, aren’t they? I had the impression that they are, since it’s such a milestone to have come up with the first one hundred of them.

How the I managed I’ll never know, but I’m still here. Still alive. Not dead. I’m not quite there yet.

If that happens put the following slogan on my tombstone: Here lies Kier Sparey, atheist. All dressed up and nowhere to go.

There’s also this thing that I want to show you. There’re two things really, and they’ve both been a help to me.

Firstly, HabitRPG.com is really a new way of setting out goals for yourself and achieving them, only with an RPG twist. You can do use it with minor things like household chores or, like me, with writing. I imagine that students could get a lot of help from this if they’re that way inclined.

Gain rewards by gaining EXP. and gold, gain EXP. and gold by completing the goals that you set for yourself. It’s a lot simpler than it looks and I adore it.

The second thing of thinginess was forcedraft.com. Now this is a program that really helps you get some typey type work done, since it forces you to write and not get distracted by facebook’s scroll-death. You put in the length of restriction on being able to use other programs and the program stays up for that period – either for a period of time or an amount of words.

These aren’t reviews as much as they are just recommendations on what’s helped me. If these were reviews the reviews would suck more than a Dyson in space.

In aid of procrastination I managed to find these things (I say find, I mean spotted on Facebook and originally shared by a lovely person called Alex. Thank you, Alex).

Kier Habit RPG Level 3

I think it’s incredibly helpful and awesome, so maybe this little version of me will appear on future blog posts as an aside, if only to show you how he’s getting on and how much little I’ve been weeping hysterically into the night and procrastinating.


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